I've been giving in to my stupid fucked up brother my whole life. Giving in because I thought he'll be happier that way. Actually it's just that I'll feel bad about arguing with my brother all the time. Ain't families supposed to be happy and loving? Anyway I think I spoilt him. So now I'm stuck in a fucked up situation. Maybe it was my fault from the start. If only I didn't spoil him.

He kept wanting to watch Just Another Pandora Box with me and I kept refusing because the showtimes were always around 2300++ when I was supposed to be online talking to my most favourite person on Earth. So today is the second day here and the tickets for the 2100 tickets were sold out. He suggested watching Alice in Wonderland but I already watched that and I knew my mum would want to watch it with us. And it was at 2315. So I rejected his offer yet again. Just as we were leaving the cinema area, on the escalator, he threw a tantrum. I wanted to go to Macdonald's to buy their porridge because I didn't have dinner and I was craving for it. Instead he passed 10 bucks to me and asked me to make my own way there and come back after that. The fact that he was already ignoring me before that just because I kept showing that I loved Tooty more didn't help. I was pissed off and I just walked away from him towards Macdonald's.

As you know, chinese people are always very superstitious. They believe that if their family wasn't happy and loving. They wouldn't win money when they bet. Besides my dad was on a winning streak. He had 6k RM stored away and he already spent around 1k plus on us and his friends. He kept treating them to lunch, dinner and all that. Well I don't mind sharing the joy. So anyway I went back to the hotel room before my dad left because I wanted to let him know that my stupid brother and I weren't on good terms for now. At least I caught him just as he was leaving the hotel room and walking down the corridor.

I told him the whole story and like me, he tried to please my brother by saying "Let's go watch Just Another Pandora Box at 0130 or Alice in Wonderland at 1115. To his dismay, my brother said that he was angry and didn't want to watch any. See, I think we all spoilt him. My dad sat around for awhile and after my brother started talking to him peacefully, he wanted to leave for gambling. He was saying "Don't angry already okay? Have a nice talk you two, don't fight". My reply was obviously yes. I for one cannot stay angry at my brother. He went on to say "Oh don't need to speak better".

He was blaming me for the fact that he can't watch his movie together with me. Oh well this part here will be for another day if you really want to know. He is freaky and I had a dream when I knocked out about three hours ago before all this happened. Maybe it was a sign. That dream was scary enough though. All this involves Tooty, my brother and me.

So maybe from now on I wouldn't talk to him ever again. This is a very tough decision to make and I know I always fail because I said it a thousand times and didn't do it.

Typing all this out makes me feel so much better. Actually I just want to go talk to Tooty online but I think he'll still be riding now so I'm not going down. I'm really hungry now because its 2100 now and I still don't have dinner. I need food. I'm upset.

I'm still as upset as ever. Maybe I'm just stupid. Shrink shrink shrink..