Put a lock on the cookie jar

Friday, July 31
9:58:00 PM

Today, someone asked why we keep talking about people.
Yes, it may be mean.
I wonder if I should stop.
But if I stop, life would be boring.
I always have a people-watching life.
I am the type of person who would rather people-watch to entertain myself than to talk about my life which is what everyone is going through too.
Maybe that's because I'm your normal average girl next door.

I haven't been able to do my F&B because like blogger, hotmail is screwed up.
Just wanna go back to sleep and go to work tomorrow.
Ugly uniform and boring day.
Don't know how to pass time man.
CourtsMega hellooooooooo!!

Haven't had dinner and I'm still thinking about F&B wine list.

The living room is getting hotter because I didn't switch on the fan.

Am in a i-kill-people-if-they-irritate-me mood.

Once again, if you see that I don't centralise my fucking text..
You'll know that blogger is screwed.

1:07:00 AM

I am fucking angry with people who like to break up and patch up again and again.
Think fun is it?
Sure you might say that you like the person to the extent of love.
But why are there countless breakups and patchups?
Oh that shows how much you love each other because you can get together again.
Because you can't give the other one up.
Ah, fuck lah.
Fuckers should burn in hell.

I seem to be talking about myself when I said fuckers should burn in hell.
Gwen should know why I am a fucker.
By that, I don't mean bitching.
Sometimes it hurts to be a fucker, you like feel guilty.
But you just can't help it.

I think I should stop being involved in politics.
Maybe I'll just be nice to everyone.
Just you wait and see.
I can be nice if I want to.
We should all make peace and talk about everything.

I don't know if I want to stick with the same group because we are too last minute somehow but we still produce quality work.
I love them but I want to get out of my comfort zone like what I mentioned before.
Wish that the class can draw lots and decide on group members.
Then everyone do their best for the group no matter what.
Isn't that going to be fun?

I am going for POM, F&B and Econs lecture tomorrow.
Yes I am!!
People will be amazed..

Now I really want transnational studies as a CDS.
Hate using the internet at home though it's so much faster.
Irritating but can't say anything.
Well, I've to live with it!!

I'm just a happy girl in the end.

No, I do not edit my photos at all.
No photoshop.
No nothing.
Too lazy.
Maybe I should get a nice camera that captures nice photos.

Aww I need money..
That's why working on Saturday and Sunday at Courts Megastore.
Come visit and buy keyboards, thank you very much.

My F&B project part is so screwed.

I still want to cut my hair cause it's too thick.
My mum keep saying it's out of shape.
But I scared..
That if I cut, I will want my old ahlian hairstyle.
Haha, oh fuck.

Wednesday, July 29
7:28:00 PM

Social networking.
Well I guess it's quite true that you only go online to stalk people's life.
So if anyone can't view my facebook or what shit.
It's either that I don't want to let you see my pictures.
Or that I want to stop stalking you.
Anyway, it works both ways for some people.
It's not like you really want to know them.
Just that you're interested in their changes in their lifes.

I think I'm becoming less and less sociable by the day.
Wonder what happened to my 'I want to make friends'?
I deleted alot of people from my msn.
Like a 100plus.
All I don't know one or I don't care about.
It's not that I care about you if you're on my contact list but I guess at least I know you in real life.
Maybe I'll delete you soon because we don't even talk.
Man, I should start living in a cave soon.

I am a bitch today.
Wait, that doesn't make sense.
I am a bitch everyday.
Now, that concludes my day.

IntHT test.
Nuts, I hate this accumulative GPA shit.
I wished I was in JC sometime.
Like take A level only..

Going for some talk for my chosen CDS tomorrow.
Transnational studies.
Fun part about it?
You get to stay in campus for 3 weeks!!
Now, does anyone want sleepovers?

Oh and my blogger is being a fucker today..
I just realised when I wanted to centralise my fucking text.

Tuesday, July 28
1:40:00 AM

It's not a give-and-you'll-get-back world.

How much you give others doesn't really matter.
Because it's how much they think they received that matters.

If I ever had another, I'm sure I'll make it memorable.
Not like these shitass stuff that I've now.
It's all blurry and you can't make out most of the parts.
More of like, I don't know what the hell has happened kind of thing.

RHT test tomorrow.
I don't have any lecture notes from lecture 3 onwards.
And you want to know something?
We're at lecture 9 now according to Sammy.

Met A at Bugis today.
Haha, she changed quite alot.
According to Ele who saw my old blogshop.
I didn't change a shit.
It has been 7months plus and I still look the same.
Hell I need to do something!!
Then online, she thought I was talking about 12dots when I was talking about 11dots.
Haha okay wtf me and my dots, lol!

We did a whole hell lot of walking.
More than I ever did in my whole life.
Okay maybe it's the places we went to.
Home > Chinatown > Central > Chinatown > Central > Bugis > Suntec City > Home.
That's roughly about it.
We've been led around in circles by Kelly Anne too..
So it pretty much sums up everything!!
I quite like our weird combo though we're like no link.

Grouping for group projects next semester is gonna suck.
I had this idea that we should draw lots and minus out ...
But I think that would be pretty mean and people can't get out of their comfort zone.
It would be fun but pretty fucked up if ... happens.

And woo, blogger is back to normal.
Blogger ain't for losers!!

Monday, July 27
3:59:00 AM

Blogged hopped damn alot tonight.
The most I've done this year.
Since 2am till 4am.
How much catching up did I do..
Guess I'm going to die tomorrow..
Visited most of the AHS people's blogs.
Probably not.

Got stuck at one blog.
Wished it wouldn't be deleted in time to come.
If only we could blog like that again..
That would have had been fun!!
Maybe that's why I allow people to blog on my blog..

I missed ........... like hell.
Wish I could talk to ........... again!!
I mean ........... was the only person I felt really comfortable talking to..
Even till the end, ........... was my bestfriend and soulmate.
I wonder why I lost ..........., I think we both had faults..
Mine was bigger I guess, wahlao I feel quite bad.
But I still think I am not in the wrong.
Well the past is the past and ........... doesn't even want to talk to me now.
So I guess I shall leave it at that because ........... probably won't see this.
Even if ........... sees this, ........... would probably think I'm a stupid fucker.
People do get nostalgic and crazy in the middle of the night.

Miracles won't happen.
I'm not going to get my RHT test studied, F&B winelist, Commsk outline, MacroEcons analysis, IntHT test studied.
That pretty much sums up my week.

I need to catch some sleep now or die tomorrow.
Hell.

Because men and women are both from earth.
I know that now.

2:03:00 AM

Celebrated Doreen's birthday today!!
Technically it's yesterday..
We all got her pink stuff, lol!
I had wanted to type Wenxin's birthday..
Think it was because we went to Eastpoint, haha.
Ate at 18's Chef.
The food was good today.
The people were even better.
I miss them.
Saw Vivien's essay to Christina and I was thinking..
Maybe life was better in AHS where everyone knows everything about one another..
Guess not.. But I missed CO days, wtf right?
TP's good too!!
I should grab a CCA, wonder what.
Photos up on facebook since I can't upload any shit here.
I wonder why my blogger has to screw up..
I refuse to move to LJ because I'm not a cool kid.

Well, happy birthday Emma!!
We may not be the closest of friends, but we share a bitchy bond.

I've found another half deaf friend today.
How cool is that?
I had one and lost one.
Then I found one!!
Well, in the end I still only have one..
Haha, I probably suck at Maths..
It's not my fault.
I didn't curse you, I swear!!

Sometimes I wonder why people have to backstab one another?
Just go gun them in their faces.
I bet it'll be a hell lot more relieving than talking about that person behind their backs.
I don't know if I'm backstabbing someone on facebook.
I'm an asshole most of the times so it probably doesn't count.
Don't think it's counted since we were never friends.
Acquaintances more like it.
You weren't a bad acquaintance but I knew you hate me too.
But I can tell you that I'm a weird person.
And I don't like people for the weirdest reason.
But I won't go beat around the bush.
Maybe I'm just like the others.
I'm fine with that person sometimes but I just had to be a bitch.

Life's so unpredictable.
You may be here for today.
And gone tomorrow.
So make good use of it.

I'm typing my friendster password right now and I find it fucking gay.
Only a genius can think of such passwords okay!!

OMG why the hell does my blog have no emotions..

Sunday, July 26
3:44:00 PM

Blogger is being a little bit nicer to me now.
I get to type in a big box!!

But I still can't do shit like uploading photos and centralising my text.
Well, alot of my friends have forsaken blogger and moved to LJ, but I don't think I'll really do that though I've an LJ account now.

I don't have alot of people to bitch about, I know you people are probably saying "But you're a bitch so you bitch about people" when you read this line..
Well, I guess I do bitch about people but I do it openly like infront of other people.

Doreen's birthday celebration at Eastpoint, we're probably going to Eighteen's Chef.
Haven't been there since Christina's birthday.

Good news is?

Everyone's going and I sort of 'finished' my part for MacroEcons group project.
Yeah I haven't done my individual part..

Before that I'm going to be a nice toot to toot and accompany him to Ehub.
Gotta go bath now!!

Friday, July 24
3:43:00 PM

Skipped lectures today to sleep. Okay I'm getting more and more predictable..

My LG KS360 is seriously chio, haha.

I should go work because now I'm really broke. Need some $$!!

I hate MacroEcons project. Haven't started and mine is due on Sunday.

I still hate blogger because I'm still typing in the little box. There's a way to resolve this but I'm lazy to go follow the steps one by one.

Here's a little something for you!!

How many f(s) are there in this sentence? Read it once and answer the question. Don't cheat!!

Finished files are the years of results of scientific study combined with the years of experience.

3 or 6?

Note:
If you answered three you've a male brain!!
There are six - no joke!
Read again below!

Finished files are the results of years of scientific study combined with the experience of years.

Thursday, July 23
5:44:00 PM

Stupid blogger is not back to normal.

Anyway now I'm adding people on facebook to see their photos, well you gotta catch up with people you saw before right?

Shall have some fun with that.

Anyway, I love my chio phone.
LG KS 360, old model but chio, wooooo!!

Tuesday, July 21
8:28:00 PM

Argh!!
I can't even upload photos..
When is this gonna end?
Stupid blogger, I give you 3days to sort yourself out!!

7:25:00 PM

There's some shitty problem with my blogger. Gwen says it's a sign to move to LJ!! Wth right?

I'm typing in this little box right now and it makes me feel pissed off!!

I think everyone should stop using Sony Ericsson phones because it sucks big time.

Auto restart and all that crap.
How much can you take?
Convert to other brands just like I did!!

Get a chio KS360 that looks like a sidekick!!
It may not that new a model but it definitely works better than SE phones!!

Fuck lah, why am I blogging in this little box?

And I can't get over it, I just can't!!
Fuck you, I wish I didn't know you!!
I wanted to delete that private space of ours but didn't.
What a coward right?

Oh fuck, I'm still blogging in the little box.. It would be hilarious if you could see me now..

Monday, July 20
11:30:00 PM

I think I might move to LJ for good.
Because blogger is starting to fuck up.
Wish I could show you all the screen shot now.
I can't even centralise my fucking text.
Anyway, add me at santapanda7@LJ if you want to read my private posts.

6:16:00 PM

Maybe I should get an LJ then I can lock up all my posts like how ... does.
Then I'll be free to type whatever I want for only the people I allow to see..
Perhaps I really need some personal space.
Well to think about really random stuff that I think about once in a blue moon.

My life is boring and if you don't like reading about it, don't visit my blog.
I guess I'm feeling cranky again..

Doing wonderful stuff to my KS360 later after folding clothes and cooking rice.
Screw POM presentation and F&B.
Okay screw F&B more because I'm gonna fail and I don't give a damn.
No, I'm not trying to attract attention like some emo kid.
I am just purely expressing my hatred for F&B!!

Okay, bye.
Off to creating my private space after doing those shit I mentioned above.
Maybe it'll be a blog.
Depends.

Gah, why am I still obsessed?
Think I'm a cranky bitch.

12:03:00 AM

I found out that alot of people's birthday are on the 27th July..
Well let's just say that out of the many, I think I'm going to wish only two, lol!
And everyone is going on the 26 July, a big WOW!!

RHT project is screwed.
Well I don't really give a damn about the LKK and his subject.

Okay, I don't have the mood to blog at all..

Sunday, July 19
1:17:00 AM

I guess most people read blogs to destress.

Well, wanna test if you're stressed?
If the image that you're seeing below moves very fast, you're damn stressed.
In other words, the slower it is, the less stressed you are.
Go on check it out.
I know it's gay but yeah!!
For me, it'll move slowly like a wave then stop..
I wonder if that happens for you..

I've been thinking of the FWB thing.
And stuff related to it.
It kind of sucks and I wonder if anyone I know is doing it.
Okay maybe some..
Forget it, just know that I'm not involved can already!!

Was reading up on some Dollfie thing..
And they say that Dollfies do talk to the first person they set their eyes on.
I remember about the show that I watched that was named 'The Doll Master'
Souls enter through the eyes of the dolls..
To kill them you have to remove their eyes and chop off their heads..
This is beginning to sound kind of freaky, isn't it?
It's 1am and thinking of it freaks me out.

Basically today I am just reading up on random stuff..
Like FWB, dollfies and even Hime Gyaru style fashion!!
I think Hime Gyaru inspired stuff are cool.
Hime Gyaru basically means princess girls.
So you roughly get the idea..
Well it's too girly and all, but it's sweet!!
Poofed up hair and everything that's looks like you took alot of time doing..

I think I'm not sociable at all.
Never was the social butterfly and forever won't be.

Somehow I miss you but it's not getting to my head at all!!

Be gone projects!!
I haven't started on RHT..
It's due in a few hours time..

Gonna go bath and get started on that shit..

Saturday, July 18
3:10:00 PM

I've a feeling that I'm gonna do something crazy to my KS360.
When I've the time.

Gotta do RHT project.
Oh shucks.

Friday, July 17
8:29:00 PM

Okay I'm damn gay..
I'm gonna meet someone to buy my ks360 at 2215 at Kallang Mrt later..
140 bucks..
Which is 80bucks cheaper than getting it online..
And 100+ bucks cheaper than getting it from retail shops..
I know I'm crazy but I need to get out of the SE crazy phone world.
SE sucks.
Haha, hello Siewchen I'm gonna get a LG too!!
Anyway I saw on the forums that this seller is a chao ah beng and all.
But got good and bad lah..
He deals fast..
But as a buyer I should be responsible for agreeing too..
Shall check the camera, speakers and god knows what.
Because they say what they he got attitude problem..
Okay he just changed the timing to 10 at Boon Keng MRT.
So I'm asking toot to go with me!!
Haha okay bye I'm gonna chiong outta the house because it's 9 now..
Stupid Frenchmaid!!

3:18:00 AM

I want to buy a LG phone!!
The LG KS 360..
Still considering..
It's like 200plus without plan..
Worthed it right..

Okay I'm in a dilemma because I always kill my phones one way or the other..

Thursday, July 16
11:29:00 PM

I'm like feeling quite wth now.
First my own phone dropped into the sea months ago.
Then I've to lend peoples' spare phones.
Now it's auto restarting and refusing to send out smses.
I think I'm a curse to phones.
Anyone dare to lend me your spare phones?
Because I really need one now..
I would really be grateful to you!!
Maybe I should use some old phone.
It's probably bomb proof.
Which means it's huiyi proof.

I realised that it's damn weird to have your ex introduce you as his ex.
It's kind of cool though.
Except the "I must have been cocked eye part!!"

Doing POM at the moment.
It's not really fun but I guess I've to do it?

Bought my presentation stuff today including heels.
I know alot of you are going "What the hell, you don't have heels?"
Yes I don't have formal heels.
Cost me like 100dollars.
I think I'm not bothered about the money I'm saving anymore.
Feel like spending it all at one go.
Sounds kind of crazy but I bet it'll be fun.
Then I'll have to torture myself and save up that amount again.
I rather not..

Playing Vampire Wars on Facebook now.
Think I'm kind of lag because apparently there are like 44 people playing it already!!
Liking vampires is not a weird fetish..

I cut my own fringe and it looks kind of wth now.
Well can't blame anyone but myself..

Back to my no photos post..
Because I'm just lazy..

Sunday, July 12
1:05:00 AM

No photos today but there are two links!!

See those two links below?
Click on them and help me do my RHT survey please!!
Thank you very much!!
It's actually one survey, the second link only 2 questions~
Love you all very much!!

http://www.surveymonkey.com/s.aspx?sm=LjeeKPb65apCqrpq9XGyKQ_3d_3d

http://www.surveymonkey.com/s.aspx?sm=04f2JM1nJ_2bhBOE0OQNKulA_3d_3d

Work tomorrow at Plaza Singapura.
Come visit me anyone.
Because I dread it!!
Something's gonna happen and I know it.

Saturday, July 11
1:08:00 AM

Woke up today wanting to go for POM lecture.
I wanted to show them I'm a changed girl.
But just couldn't get out of bed.

Was supposed to meet the girls for lunch but they were starving.
So they went to eat without me!!
Luckily toot asked me go eat lunch with him before they pangseh me.
Salty chicken chop.
Oh reminds me that I owe toot 70cents.
He damn cute lah, sms me to say thank you for accompanying him to lunch and goodnight!!

Went to school solely to fail F&B test.
Seriously I don't know what the crap I'm doing at all.
Screw it.
I'm becoming a nerd.

AYG appreciation crap was next.
Collected our tickets and goodie bags.
Listen to some boring speech.
Waited fucking long for Stefanie Sun to appear.
Oh I realised that she's called Stefanie and not Stephanie..
She lip sync lah!!
Apparently we think she was rehearsing for her upcoming concert tomorrow.
Her costumes are ugly.
She can't dance.
Got fat thighs and what's more.
She no respect for the other races around.
I mean like what the hell!!
Got malay and indians, maybe angmohs like Gwen and Kelly.
Then she over there speaking mandarin because she says her english suck.
AND HER WHOLE PERFORMANCE WAS IN ENGLISH.
Left half an hour after she appeared.

KFC with Sammy, Kelly and Laurentia.
Shared some stories.
They are fun!!

Presenting to you the survivors of AYG minus Xinyi and Vivian!!

Photos up on facebook!!

I can't stop hiccuping still..
I keep feeling like vomiting.
Mind you, I'm not bulimic or some shit!!

My brother so cute too!!
He put a book on my bed.
And when I came back he told me "Jie, there's a book on your bed."
Then I was like "You so nice buy for me?"
He say "No it's my friend's one, I thought it's nice and recommend you to read it."
Sweet, ain't he?

Thursday, July 9
4:59:00 PM

I now officially have an BMI of 18.5.
I missed 3meals already.
Yesterday's lunch and dinner.
Today's lunch.
Before that was 19.1..
Which means I'm healthy cause I'm in the healthy range.
That means my dajie is unhealthy because she's damn skinny and taller than me..

I miss my 8aypokks!!
Wish I can meet up with them soon.
27July faster come, haha.

AYG Appreciation Night tomorrow.
Gwen was like dragging everyone else along.
So I'm going, lol!

Now I like Katy Perry's Mannequin too.
I know I'm a lagger..

How do I get closer to you
When you keep it all on mute
How will I know the right way to love you
Usually the queen of figuring out
Breaking down a man is no work out
But I have no clue
How to get through to you

12:08:00 AM

Today concludes the end of our AYG duties.
I was having fever throughout..
Met some great friends today.
I think the bunch of them are funny.
Took some photos but I think I look like crap today.
Because I was sick and never even bothered to put make up at all.
I'm just getting lazier and lazier.
If I can skip the eyeliner and mascara, I skip it because I'm comfortable with my face.
So practically there's nothing.

Reached home and slept straightaway.
My temperature was 39.0 when I woke up.
Dad thought I contracted H1N1 and was asking me to go die.
Well I vomited twice and had a little diarrhea.
Apparently my aunt says it's gastric flu.
Meaning I can't eat or drink anything in large amount.
Or risk vomiting it all out.
Luckily I didn't eat lunch at AYG or I would have puked on the spot..
I usually ain't a sickly kid.
But it seems like today I'm practically dying.
I haven't gotten a fever in years or vomited in years.
It's all happening today..
I freaking lost 1plus kg just by being sick.
Maybe it's a blessing in disguise.
Should go lose some more weight, lol!

I feel kind of stuck in the middle now..
It's like I know something is gonna happen.
Yet I can't do anything to help or stop it.
I wish I could make peace.
Hope everything will turn out fine in the end.

Don't think I can sleep tonight.
Because I slept too much in the afternoon.

I love typing on my laptop because its so easy to type.
Yes I know I'm random.

I think I have an average GPA of 3.0!!
I mean that's my goal.
I have 1Z, 2A, 1B+, 1B, 1unknown.
My RHT and F&B sucks to the core seriously.
Because it's not really application question kind of paper..
If I fail F&B then maybe it'll be 2.something I think.
But I had wanted 3.5 so guess I need to study harder..
Because there's people who are getting 4.0 all the way.
You all should welcome mugger Huiyi.
I'm finally gonna start studying after all these years.
Everyone nags at me to study but I never did so.
I don't want to waste my parents money.
But I don't have the drive to study.
I never ever put in effort for this mid sem.
I should stop all this nonsense.
Someone should give me a wake up call.

I'm in love with Not Fair though it's not a really new song, lol!

I JUST CALLED JOHN AN IDIOT, I FEEL SO BAD!

Wednesday, July 8
12:28:00 AM

I dont know why but all of a sudden i called John an idiot! I feel so bad now, I think he emo liao.

Tuesday, July 7
11:57:00 PM

See this photo.
It was when we were sec1.
Nerd right?
But I think we were so cute.
Had wanted post this yesterday.
Got alot of other photos to post up.
Another day perhaps.
What the hell.
I can still remember that it was during sec1 year end like around september.
Because I also remember showing it to someone who said why do girls like to take neoprints?

I just realised that my commission didn't hit $30 because I missed target by $4.
Funny right?
Well whatever, commission is just extra money.
I should have asked my old customer to buy 2keyboards lah!!
Okay my customers do recognise me.
Think my face very easy to remember cause it has a unique shape.
Like fat fat one.

I think I need to learn which is the truth sometimes, lol!!
Always learning new stuff but can even learn wrong..

I help my mum out with her stuff every night.
I think I'm a good kid.

See the random post above this?
I think I should really do something about it =(

I watched The Doll Master today.
Ain't a scary show at all.
Graphics also not that nice, lol!
Guess I'm a horror and gore fan..
Halfway through The Haunted School.
It's a lame show seriously.
Recommended Atashinchi no Danshi to fellow volunteer.
Haha, must share good stuff in life.
I just thought the ending wasn't nice.

Monday, July 6
11:56:00 PM

Nothing feels right when I'm not with you.

The above pictures are my favourite photos.
They might be old but they kinda contain precious memories to me.
Okay, these photos ain't that old.
To me, old is one month ago.
Only one is new.
Spot it, haha.

AYG duties.

They're watching Mr Brown's Wash Your Hands too.

I'm like totally reminded of someone, haha.

Just scratched my eyelid with my nail by accident.

Guess alot of accidents happen everyday, lol!

5:04:00 PM

Sort of ponned AYG today to sleep.
And I was telling Vivian I wasn't a ponner last night, sorry my dear!!
Slept at 6plus am because I was talking to Kaijie on the phone.
Is I call him one because Siewchen make me cry, lol!
Then he super nice and sweet never put down the phone.
Because I woke him up, lol!
See I got say nice things about you okay!!

My bestfriend, Siewchen, is officially the Queen of Paranoia!!
I was talking about not trusting some friend and that I missed my friend in previous posts.
Because obviously my friend changed and I miss her like hell.
And I hardly post about girlfriends, so that little girl took it as her.
Since I post about her the most.
She sent me a super long sms.
Which I will type here because I don't ever want to forget this sms.

You know, the hardest part is to trust each other is not true, it maybe for you but the hardest part for me is how to not let you feel that I've forgotten you. I have always think of you. Period, you're part of me now since there's so many memories of you in me, it's just that physically we're not seeing each other, I take the 'absence makes the heart grow fonder' very well, and thought you could too, but I was wrong, I overlooked the fact that you always need reality checks {meeting up in reality, sms} to feel secure. I'm sorry, I thought you could go through well spiritually. But still, I insist on this way for our friendship cause let's face it, both of our future are completely different pathways and once my school starts it'll be worst. So hui yi, I'm asking you, please trust me, I know its hard for you but you must, cause that's how life is. I seriously mean what I said many times. It's just that now it's a spiritual way instead of physically cause I won't be able to do in future. Sorry hui yi.

I know I make the text damn small and CTRL+I it, you all cannot read.
But it made me cry.
It made me realise that after all this years that I've been in and out of relationships.
My bestfriend is the one who loves me the most.
Everyone comes and go someday.
But I know you'll always be here for me!!
That sentence is true and I know you mean it.
Don't worry too much about me.
I will never stop loving you.
Okay, I'm crying again.
I normally only cry over boys, even klike all those damn sad drama I also won't cry.
Even when my whole family is crying.
I would be there with no expression on my face.
You, my friend, has made an great impact on my life.
I will never forget you, much less not trust you.
You kind of watched me grow up.
And I will do the same for you!!

Fucker blogger don't me me upload photos!!
I will upload next time.
Angry!!

Okay gotta go chiong MacroEcons now.
Got some chilli on my hand and it's itching at that spot.
Thanks toot for the lunch/dinner!!

After so long..
Everyone wants to buy my smiley hairties.

Sunday, July 5
11:27:00 PM

I had wanted to update and that kj ask me go sleep.
So this is a brief update.
See if I want to do one at AYG tomorrow.
But I think I need to do my MacroEcons.
I think I'll feel too screwed to do it.

Haha, since toot blogged about me two times in a row.
Here's something in return.
Your mushroom hair is gone for good!!
You look better without it.
Chio and bouncey girlfriend, haha!!

Sold 2keyboards and pianos today.
Without really promoting.
Commission, woo.

Gotta wake up at 5 tomorrow.

Sorry to RHT groupmates because I just saw the mails :(
I promise I'll help out in the next one.
This one is cause my work is taking up all my damned time.

Love Popeye's french fries?
Think again after seeing this picture.

That's right.
It's brown oil that I squeezed out from some fries.
All the fries were drenched in oil.
Gwen didn't feel like eating anymore after I did this shit to the fries.
Yes I know sometimes I'm a crazy freak who squeeze oil outta fries.

Okay bye, he's nagging!!
Everyone's nagging in fact.
Because I've to wake up at 5am.
I know I've no brains to be blogging.

My mum just wasted like 50mins of my time asking me to do her company shit.
That's why I couldn't do my own shit!!

Friday, July 3
11:07:00 PM

Went to Wenxin's house today at 5plus.
Home at 10pm.

This photo very nice right.
I don't play the piano.
I sell them though.
Want come buy?

Work tomorrow and on Sunday.
Whenever I've to work.
I would feel unhappy.
Maybe it's because I don't like working.
I hate my uniform.
Detest the customers because they won't buy.
But I still have to go to work.
Why?
Because I've no pocket money.

I keep saying I've no life.
Apparently other people all think I've a life..
Well it depends.

I should get a haircut.
But I'm scared that I would regret.

Project deadline.

The hard part would be trusting each other.
Well, I'm sorry.
I miss you, friend.

1:26:00 AM

Okay lah, I know my face so big shock the shit outta you guys right?
But this is my blog and I love my face, this is how I'm feeling right now.
Even though I didn't know I would have a use for this photo when I took it.
How retarded of me.
Huiyi is in a pissed off mood right now because she feels transparent.
Maybe if I didn't expect that much, I wouldn't be disappointed.
So many things that I've said and yet all was neglected.
I mean, where'd you go?
I miss you so.
Guess I treated you too importantly and now I'm sad.
I should just have been whoever I was.
The one who doesn't care.
Then I wouldn't be feeling this.
It's the first time in years that I'm even bothering.
And I get such shit.
Yes you're cheerful and all.
But do you remember me?
I don't know.

By the way, this is not a emo post.
It's just for a friend that I miss alot.
I wish she would come back.
But I know it's impossible.
People do change.

Those of you who said my brother ugly, fuck yourself because I think he is cute the way he is.
I think you all look more ugly than him!!
Sorry but I don't allow people to criticise my family members like that.
Seriously lah, look in the mirror before you speak.
He is just chubby, that's all.
Not cute meh!!
I mean you're my friend but you offended me by saying that this morning.

I think I'll do picture post everytime.
So expect more of my face.
Or faces of other people, haha.
Old photos, lol!

Thursday, July 2
9:11:00 AM

I'll always be here for you.

I wonder how many times I've heard this line.
How many of those people who said it really meant it.
Maybe no one does and everyone is just saying it for the sake of saying it.
I emo.
I happy.
I emo.
I happy.
Haha, that's what I always do.
Most of the times I'm happy.

I guess I just don't like people promising me stuff anymore.
I feel like a hidden friend.
No idea why I feel like that.
Maybe we should stop being friends.
It's true that I don't really like the stories you tell me.
Probably I'm not exposed to such culture.

Knowing what I'm thinking wouldn't make you any happier too.
Whatever that has happened in the past.

I can't put it down.

Talking to you is alright.

But I can't continue from there.

I've finished Zettai Kareshi a week ago.
Zettai Kareshi Special is so cute..
My brother found it touching, lol!
Finishing Atashinchi no Danshi soon too.

I've pictures to post.

But no phone cable, haha.

Well I know you guys don't know what I'm posting about.

Okay I promise I'll blog more normally.

At least I'll try to..

I'm talking to Eleanor on msn now.

I think we're so gay because we're both at the airport doing helpdesk..

Suddenly reminded of our secondary 4 Social Studies crap.

LTTE.

Haha, what a joke that person made outta it.

I laughed like crap.

_____'s profile is funny.
I wonder if you still read my blog after so long..

Wednesday, July 1
10:08:00 AM

Siewchen says to be careful of H1N1 because it's communal spread.

I told her yah okay you too!!

And after I thought about it..

I realised that you can't be careful of people who have H1N1 because they won't have H1N1 written on their faces.

So yeah..

But I heard that TP already has 2 people down with H1N1 and campus is still operating.

Well welcome H1N1, haha.

My life is like Flynn's.

Screwed. I know cause I just read his blog.

I slept at 10plus pm woke up at 7pm yesterday.

Slept at 3plus or 4plus am woke up at 5.25am today.

For AYG today, haha.

People here are still talking about beethoven.

Think he's still in style.

His chinese name is Bei Duo Fen.

Which literally means back more points.

It means that the person from the back look nicer.

I first learnt about this term from Hisham.

Now people are still using it.

Woo, Bei Duo Fen.

Applys to loads of girls.

I asked someone what to blog about through sms.

And he replied:

"Huiyi: I have been texting a certain close friend of mine everyday. The weird thing is I seldom see him and talk to him face to face. I kind of miss him =))"

And I was texting teddy chia this morning and she keep asking me to think of her.

I'm thinking of you okay my sweet Teddy Chia Yiting!!

We're like always mushy, lol!

They make me happy man.

See how gay my friends are getting.

Anyway I'm currently a poor kid.

So those who owe me money should pay up.

You don't need me to go chasing you right.

Oh right, you do.
Because you don't read my blog in months.

People can't pronounce accredited properly.
I'm not gonna try saying it because they all look stupid trying to pronounce that.

Like everyone start saying that word all over.

12:38:00 AM

Slept till 7pm today.
Technically it's yesterday.
Yes I skipped AYG due to headache and flu.

AYG yesterday was some fucker.
We just got some random people asking for directions.
But we had lots of food, haha.
And Marcell is a fucker.
Helpdesk duty was more of watching dramas for me, lol!
Atashinchi no Danshi, woooo.
I suck at using the walkie talkie seriously.
Smallest shirt size: L

Well since I was sleeping.
Let me tell you about one of my dreams.
I had alot of them and I dreamt about different people.
Since I remember this the most clear, here it goes..

Wanted to go to school late at night at 7pm. (And by school, I meant AHS)
Couldn't find a decent uniform.
Threw temper.
Dilemma for a long while.
Bathed and got out of the house at 9plus pm in home clothes.
The sleeping kind of home clothes.
Went back home because too paiseh to get out of home area.

In a cab at town.
Saw you walking by.
Smiled at each other.
Somehow starting pushing a bike beside you on the streets between cars.
Tried to get onto my bike but just couldn't.
I didn't know how to cycle.
Your friends laughed.
Somehow sat down somewhere and you went off.
Friends made fun of me.
Asked me to do stuff and I did.
They said I was a good girl like a dog and threw coins at me to say I was cheap.
I screamed at them.
They were terrified.
You came back.
Told you what happened but you didn't believe.
Your friends acted like nothing happened.

Shopping at some random shopping centre.
I was holding my laptop and geography textbook.
Went to some Little John restaurant (must be siewchen and her john little influence)
Other places can't remember.
Went home by myself by train.
Found out laptop gone.
Called you to ask.
You said don't know and hung up.
I rushed back to shopping centre.
Checked all places we went to.
No laptop.
Saw aunt at the lift and mum appeared suddenly.
She jabbed me damn hard and I remembered that I didn't bring my laptop at all.

I woke up after this.
Guess it's a random dream but it does have some significance to me.
It's telling me to take care of my valuables, to stand up for myself and to prepare beforehand.
And have less dosage of IntHT proposal.
Speaking of proposals and such, I've like 5more projects to go?
Dreams are wonderful stuff.
Well I shan't tell you my other dreams because they're kind of personal and I can't say it to anyone anymore..

Maybe I should attempt to put some pictures soon.
Everyone's doing pictorial post except meeeeeeee.
Poor old me.
Okay wait, I'm not that old.
Whatever..