Sort of ponned AYG today to sleep.
And I was telling Vivian I wasn't a ponner last night, sorry my dear!!
Slept at 6plus am because I was talking to Kaijie on the phone.
Is I call him one because Siewchen make me cry, lol!
Then he super nice and sweet never put down the phone.
Because I woke him up, lol!
See I got say nice things about you okay!!

My bestfriend, Siewchen, is officially the Queen of Paranoia!!
I was talking about not trusting some friend and that I missed my friend in previous posts.
Because obviously my friend changed and I miss her like hell.
And I hardly post about girlfriends, so that little girl took it as her.
Since I post about her the most.
She sent me a super long sms.
Which I will type here because I don't ever want to forget this sms.

You know, the hardest part is to trust each other is not true, it maybe for you but the hardest part for me is how to not let you feel that I've forgotten you. I have always think of you. Period, you're part of me now since there's so many memories of you in me, it's just that physically we're not seeing each other, I take the 'absence makes the heart grow fonder' very well, and thought you could too, but I was wrong, I overlooked the fact that you always need reality checks {meeting up in reality, sms} to feel secure. I'm sorry, I thought you could go through well spiritually. But still, I insist on this way for our friendship cause let's face it, both of our future are completely different pathways and once my school starts it'll be worst. So hui yi, I'm asking you, please trust me, I know its hard for you but you must, cause that's how life is. I seriously mean what I said many times. It's just that now it's a spiritual way instead of physically cause I won't be able to do in future. Sorry hui yi.

I know I make the text damn small and CTRL+I it, you all cannot read.
But it made me cry.
It made me realise that after all this years that I've been in and out of relationships.
My bestfriend is the one who loves me the most.
Everyone comes and go someday.
But I know you'll always be here for me!!
That sentence is true and I know you mean it.
Don't worry too much about me.
I will never stop loving you.
Okay, I'm crying again.
I normally only cry over boys, even klike all those damn sad drama I also won't cry.
Even when my whole family is crying.
I would be there with no expression on my face.
You, my friend, has made an great impact on my life.
I will never forget you, much less not trust you.
You kind of watched me grow up.
And I will do the same for you!!

Fucker blogger don't me me upload photos!!
I will upload next time.
Angry!!

Okay gotta go chiong MacroEcons now.
Got some chilli on my hand and it's itching at that spot.
Thanks toot for the lunch/dinner!!

After so long..
Everyone wants to buy my smiley hairties.