I've been reading my old blog posts.

No no no, correction.

Old space posts.

So expect only reflections from now onwards.

Scroll to your colour.

Red for baby.

Green for wenxin and yiting.

Purple for little ant.

Pink for VAC, the bimbos. HAHAHA!

Yellow for venecia, deslyn, jolynn and rechelle.

Orange for the 8aypokks and dajie.

I find that I used to hate the world so much.

Now I don't really hate the world anymore.

I am a lucky girl and I should learn to count my blessings.

Baby is starting school next monday.

This means our outings are gonna drop in numbers.

Of course, this ain't gonna change anything.

Because up till now, me and baby are still so close that it makes people shudder, hahaha.

I didn't know I used to hate everything so so so much.

In fact now, I don't really hate anything.

I love you baby.

I really love you and I'm not saying it for the sake of saying it.

I'm never gonna be insecured anymore.

I know I'm an insecured child thus I didn't like it when you asked your old friend out.

But now I won't anymore.

Because if we're meant to be, we're meant to be.

Nothing can break us apart like you said on our 9th month.

Hahaha, amazed that I remember right?

I also realised why I always repeat my mistakes.

Now I'm never gonna do wrong again.

I used to listen to this particular person but it all went wrong, so now I don't listen to you.

I was wrong and still am wrong.

I was wrong to listen to him.

And wrong to not listen to you.

I'll try my best to turn into a better girl so you don't have to look for one.

I know I haven't been spending much time with my dear wenxin and yiting.

I saw that I am always with you both, having fun and all.

We were inseparable as a matter of fact.

I don't know what happened to us now.

But I do miss you both.

I know we won't have the chance to always go out like last time because we're all in different schools.

It makes me sad that we won't be as close as ever.

But I can assure you that I will make an effort for us to go out every 2months or 1month.

Let's be friends forever.

For my dearest little ant.

You've been listening to my crap and giving me advice from the day I knew you.

And it makes me sad that I won't be able to walk up the hill with you anymore.

It makes me sad that I won't be able to wait for you at simei.

It makes me sad that I won't be able to see your goofy smile everyday.

Thinking about going to different schools from you really makes me so sad that I'm crying now.

I'm so gonna miss you.

I'll always remember that you tolerate all my crap and da-xiao-jie-ness if any.

In fact, I'll always remember you.

Crap, I can't stop crying.

In fact it pains me to see all the happy times we have.

No, that doesn't pain me.

It pains me because I'm not going to have that everyday anymore.

I'm really gonna miss you.

Okay, I know I'm repeating this but it's true.

For my dearest VAC.

I didn't know we were gonna be goodfriends.

It's good that we made it this far.

Let's keep in touch via our blog.

Don't forget to read or update it.

I'm gonna miss you all too.

To my 4D girls, jolynn, rechelle, venecia and deslyn.

Friendships do come and go.

But it's what you leave behind that matters.

You girls never failed to make me smile when I'm upset.

So here's a big thankyou to you girls.

I really miss you all now too.

To my 8aypokks.

We've come this far as a big group and we'll continue to walk through life together.

I love all of you even though I'm not so close to you.

Dajie, I'll never forget you.

Reflections done.

Okay not really reflections.

Reflections another day.

These are my messages for my dears.