Aranda is always the cleanest. I love the balcony area.

People just keep gathering together to talk about where they are going and what they plan to do. Mahjong was the most fun, okay maybe just because I kept winning -.- I always have a lucky streak when it comes to gambling, I hope lady luck would never go away and I'll get what I want!

When I grow up, I want to have a home that has balconies. Balconies, not balcony, hahaha!

I suddenly feel damn screwed up. Okay, I know this is random but it's how I feel now.

Anyway I have a feeling that even if I studied, I would still be getting the same results.

The school system is screwed up. All my smart friends are only getting like 10 or 11 or 12 or 13 when they're supposed to be getting 6 or 7 or 8. You get the point, but no.

All the neighbourhood school kids are doing better than us. They are all getting the 7 or 8 or 9 results. Pure science my shit. What's the point of taking pure science when the results that come out are like crap? AHS should offer courses like DnT, PoA, home econs, combined science and all the crap so all of us can get more A1s.

Maybe I should have gone to a neighbourhood school. Later my brother do better than me in Os, then I'll be fucking screwed up. Take note that I don't like the word fuck but that will be how I feel when he does better than me just because his school is offering him better courses that will secure him A1s.

Actually, I'm not that upset. I didn't study at all and I can even watch tv till 2 or 3am on the day of exam -.- And I was always online and going to people's houses when other people are mugging away.

But now I'm stuck in this stupid and awful situation where I have nowhere to go because I didn't do well and I didn't do that badly either. I don't feel like going to poly anymore because I have no definite course in mind. I don't feel like going to JC because that's so not me. This is not real, this is not me. I'm not exactly where I want to be. Now the light doesn't shine on me.

I wish we'll always be together till this extent that I want to go to the same school as him, but that wouldn't be happening. I have never wanted something so much. Maybe it's time to get out of this obsession. Seeing each other everyday wouldn't be good. Maybe it should just be like how it is now, that we're in different schools but yet so in love with each other, lol!

Forget all this shit, I'm going to talk to my parents about this shit when they get back. For now, I shall go cook maggie mee for my lunch again.

I don't get why people think I'm fair. I think I'm yellow :(

I'm not feeling exactly happy anymore even though people keep praising me. Yes, go praise the lord instead. I am not christian by the way. It's not helping me feel happy.

Promises are all empty promises so nobody should promise anyone anything because it wouldn't come true. I've learnt that since I was small but I always hope that there's this little bit of truth in them. That it will be happening.

Let's see how long I can keep that.