A little edited, this is actually the STOP THEFT poem, so yah (:

WHILE YOU WEREN'T THINKING
You were so unbearable,
gossiped by those people.
Friends? I should have known better.
At least that's what I told myself later.
But t'was a little too late,
as my heart decided my fate.



So anyway, that was random, haha.
I overslept today, how pro right?
Am studying chinese now and I miss all my friends, lol!

Today is piggy day.

Actually not.

But who cares?

Let's dance and celebrate.

I am tall.

My ankle/back hurts.

4 mosquito bites.

Piggy has.

Curly wurly, bouncy hair.

Long and sparse eyelashes.

Sharp nose.

Piggy is a.

Sticky person.

With a fatty phone.

That costs a bomb.

Piggy likes to.

Bites shirt and eat hair.

Piggy is a.

Baby.

That I love.

The end of piggy day.



I wish upon a star that there's forever.
And so on that piece of metal, our names were engraved.

Can anyone really pass the test of time in this society of modern thinking?

HELLO EARTHLINGS! Okay, I am not a martian or anything but I'm feeling very sticky now after walking home, the weather is seriously horrible nowadays.

Had english common test which was on speech writing, think I screwed it up, hahahaha. Surprisingly I didn't feel like sleeping at all in school today, maybe cause I slept in the evening last night, need to go and bath and sleep again. There's like chemistry test tomorrow, the tests are starting to pile up, okay I need to study harder, sometimes I feel like I'm lousy or something when I see those people with 6, 7, 8 or 9 A1s. They're like superb or something, and I'm just like nothing, haha. Maybe I haven't reached the stage whereby I study like a freak and that I don't care about anything else. Should I drop to combined science or something since for pure science, you'll probably need to get like 85 to get a A1, heard from some person say only 11 people in the cohort got A1 for chemistry for AHS, so it's like hopeless for me since I only got a B4 for end year :(((((((

Sometimes, I start to think about why the people on this Earth can be so so so evil. Plotting, scheming and fake smiles. Are these all those things that smart people can come up with? Where did all the innocence go? Is it because people are too smart and they're just trying to waste their brain cells or something? I feel like I want to study the human behaviour or something like that. I find myself wondering how come a person is like that for the whole day, haha maybe not the whole day but for a few minutes, lol!

Sticky person, I wonder what will happen if you really go overseas to study? You owe me a coloured pikachu drawing if I can prove that the nail buffer thingy is true, muahahaha~ and it had better be nice, haha. My mummy just said that being termed us is useless and some other stuff. Don't be stressed over anything okay? Just do your best ^^

Hey all, look at this cute ginseng resting in a pot of boiling water!

SO CUTE RIGHT~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~!

So yah, my brother sprained his ankle because of volleyball, haha. He must have had been the ball, lol! My back hurts and I can't wait to be 16, I want to watch the NC16 ghost movies, haha. Screwed up the gong han today because I totally blanked out and forgot the format ))))))): So I wrote crap, just hoping for a pass right now, there's amaths test tomorrow and I got little ant to teach me amaths. I haven't done circles yet, guess I really need to study with someone else, lol! I can't study on my own? Aww man, we talked alot and alot as usual and sometimes I heard things that I've never heard before. I let my mummy cut my fringe and I cut it even shorter myself, whatever. I need to go home early tomorrow so that I can sleep, now considering if I should follow little ant to lavender, hope she will agree to go on saturday or sunday, haha. Tv is funny right now, hahaha. Oh and some cut hair got into my eye and it's damn pain, I couldn't get it out cause it was sticking to my eyeball or contacts, lol! But I just pull it out with my nails after I heck the pain. Ohmygod, I'm beginning to like the word heck, where did I pick this up from?

Hello everyone, look at this very cool chain mail, lol! I copied it straight and it's colourfulllllllllllll~






Have you ever wondered which hurts the most?

Saying something and wishing you hadn't?, or
Saying nothing and wishing you had?

I guess the most important things are the hardest things to say.Don't be afraid to tell someone you love them.
If you do, they might break your heart ...if you don't, you might break theirs.


Have u ever decided not 2 become a couple because you were so afraid of losing what you already had with that person?

Your heart decides whom it likes and whom it doesn't.
You can't tell your heart what to do. It does it on its own........when you least suspect it, or even when you don't want it to.

Have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had, but that other person was too afraid to let you ?

Too many of us stay walled up because we are too afraid to care too much...for fear that the other person does not care as much, or even at all.

Have you ever denied your feelings for someone because your fear of rejection was too hard to handle ?

We tell lies when we are afraid... afraid of what we
don't know , afraid of what others will think, afraid of what will be found out about us.
But every time we tell a lie, the thing we fear grows stronger .

Life is all about risks and it requires you to jump.

Don't be a person who has to look back and wonder what they would have done, or could have had.

* What would you do if every time you fell in love you had to say good-bye?

*What would you do if every time you wanted someone they would never be there?

* What would you do if your best friend died tomorrow and you never got to tell them how you felt? ( even if it is that you don't care anymore )
* What would you do if you loved someone more than ever and you couldn't have them?
*What would you do if you never got the chance to say I am friends with all of my family and they know I love them?*

People live, but people die. I want to tell you that
you are a friend.

If you died tomorrow (God Forbid)
you would be in my heart.
Would I be in yours?


You might be best friends one year, pretty good friends the next year , don't talk that often the next, and don't want to talk at all the year after that.

So, I just wanted to say, even if I never talk to you again in my life, you are special to me and you have made a difference in my life,

I look up to you, respect you , truly cherish you , most of all I CARE about friends


Send this to all your friends, no matter how often you talk, or how close you are ,

Let old friends know you haven't forgotten them, and tell new friends you never will.


Remember, everyone needs a friend someday you might feel like you have NO FRIENDS at all, somebody out there cares about you and ...................... always will..

I care about YOU !!

Aloha all darlings who are reading my blog, haha!

Took the bus down to Kovan and then the mrt to chinatown. Was playing djmax till I don't even know where I was, lol! I even turned around and asked a person where Kovan was, lol! So luckily I didn't miss the stop, I would have missed it if I played another song, haha. Reached my cousin's house at around 1plus, I was late but she just finished bathed, and i forgot to bring the keys and she called me blur. So I helped her with those hanyu pinyin thingy till 4plus while talking on the phone to little ant, she was like entertaining me while I did those thingy. And my cousin said she hate people who can multi-task, lol! So we went to vivocity and she brought me to some shop to eat, forgot the name, lol! The food there is not say very nice but just normal so I didn't really remember the name. Then we went around walking and she bought me two bags, and some stuff. She gave me money to cab home, lol! I must say that my pay for doing her work is alot, muahahaha~ The taxi driver kept talking to me lah, but he is like a semi-retired uncle so I guess he's just socialising, haha. Little ant called me, I asked her to bring the mockingbird book cause mine flew away. I need to go and bath now, but my daddy is bathing and he's using up all the hot water. I need to do my chem homework.

I don't know. Will you happen to repeat whatever you did if something crops up? My instinct tells me that you will, because I don't seem to matter at all. It's like I'm a come and go thingy. When you miss me, I shall be there. When you don't, we don't even need to talk. Your trust in me wavered when your mother told you things, what am I to you? Don't you even know me? How can you like someone who you don't know? I don't know at all, I don't really know anymore. It's this lost feeling again and again when you're not here.

Nobody can go back and start anew, but anyone can start today and make a new ending.

Hoho, vivien, let's make sure that the 8aypokks spend our birthdays together, yes the 8aypokks rocks! I love all of you guys too, I mean girls ^^

Haha, lamer2, my tagboard is dead dude.

Hello hellpi family, you're my dearest hellpi and I'm in your spree family, lol! I am part of the hellpi family, haha Xiuchen? lol!

This marks the 60th post of my blog, I feel like I'm 60years old or something. You know, the people in the past all celebrate their 50th or 60th birthday and make it very grand. I want to make my post very grand, muahahahaha~ like real!

I wanted to update on saturday but it seems like I can only publish this post on Sunday I guess? I don't really know what will happen to the published post, lol!

I went to Dhoby Ghaut with little ant to collect shoes, guess what? The boots that I like the most was out of stock! And one pair of shoes which were supposed to be ballet flats turned into some short heeled thingy, haha. We went to Queenstown and found our way to Queensway. I must say that Queensway has alot of guy clothes and 90percent of them are super duper nice, how I wished I was a guy. We saw this magnetic felt toy thingy that listens to the seller's command. She was like sleep, and the thingy fell flat on it's face. She said wake up, and the thingy stood up. She said sit and it sat. She said dance and it jumped around. It is cool and that's all. Me and little ant stood around for quite some time trying to figure it out but we didn't manage to do so anyway. Spent most of our time looking for shoes, because the shops don't have my size, like whathe? Bought one pair in the end and chionged to City Plaza just to buy hats or caps you called it, whatsoever.

Will be going to BLK34 in chinatown tomorrow to help my cousin do her chinese stuff, her chinese suck, muahahaha~ I am so lazy to go lah, I hate bribery because it makes me feel like a lowly being. I'm just going to help her because her chinese is pathetic and I won't want to see her fail her job. She wanted me reach there 10am in the morning and eat breakfast, follow her go gym and spa. I rejected her offer because I'm lazy, lol! I just want to get this over and done with because I've chem homework, I did emaths, amazing right?

Someone told me crying is bad for the eyes, lol! Yah, but I only cry when I feel emo, lol! I think I will not feel emo again. Emo-ness is once in a blue moon. I need to forget now that I've forgiven. Memories will fade and there wasn't much to start with. Letting go of stuff is really hard but I felt like I could do it, but just let me think of what I used to have in the past once in awhile, it'll be quite fun, lol!

Do you really think that I'm sympathetic and need your sympathy? No, I'm not. Yes, you are important to me. But that something that I am waiting for never existed from the start. It's happily never after. I don't need you to come and make me miss you. Because you don't, you don't give a damn.

Nothing you can do will make him love you more,
and nothing you've done could make him close the door.

Heck. I went to start something but was ignored, why do I even bother when I know the outcome?

Had cca welcome party yesterday, not so nice but just hope everyone had fun since it was planned last minute. Some juniors are just so cute and some just look so pretty. Jolynn's sister is also in CO, yay? So yesterday was my laodajie's birthday! She's quite easy to surprise too, BIG SMILE! I didn't know she really thought that wenxin, yiting and me were talking, we thought she already knew, lol! She also didn't know that we got the present for her while she was writing non-stop on the CO whiteboard, lol! So cute can? Went to eighteen's chef at Eastpoint, the student meal is super duper cheap, ohmygod! And teddybear, I eat very fast one okay! Met new people today, like Alicia, Joan and Mingyue, lol! They're all pretty nice to talk to and they're super funny. And we all have a common topic! Guiyue left early which was quite sad because she missed out the fun part, muahahahaha~ Went home with Doreen and Christina and Christina kept wanting to buy her yellow shit, guess she got it, haha.

Am updating my psp since it hasn't been working for such a long time, I shall make full use out of it tomorrow when I'm out with my dearest little ant. We're going to collect stuff and buy stuff. Hope that the stuff that we're collecting tomorrow would be up to standard or else I'll be real bored, dadadada~ Getting all the high school musical songs because I'm too bored at the moment.

I am just a dumby, dumby who has fallen in love with your smile.

Hey everyone, this post is a pile of bullshit too.

Okay, I am not sad now, and I am not emo, lol! After switching on the tv, I realise something. Something that I need to learn. Even gays can do it, why can't I? I mean I am not going to be gay. But my realisation wakes me up. However, I would still continue to be in this slumber, forever waiting for a somebody who I am a nobody to. I will wait till the time is ripe. Aww man, don't I sound pathetic? lol! I don't care. So that I can concentrate on my studies and I shall go to poly and fulfill my dreams, what for did I cry for? I think I haven't grow up. It's so cool to not grow up. I just want to be myself. To have that crush on somebody, lol! I think tv is damn cute. It's just feeling your presence to them.

Who cares if you cried? Who cares if you;re feeling sour?

Everyone please do not read this, because it is an emo post and the person who it is meant for will never visit this blog, so don't read this post at all. READ THE YELLOW PART ONLY~ Just posting for I want to remember how stupid a person like me can get, lol!

I am sitting infront of the computer now, and I haven't bathed. I am feeling very emo now, very very emo, I am crying infront of the computer now and the tears are blurring up the stupid screen. Twice found, twice gone. My hands are cold and I can feel the sourness tingling at my fingertips. Yes, my heart is very sour now. I have never felt this way ever since that day last year. I have never felt this way even on that day last year. It seemed so close, yet so far away. Why is this feeling coming to me? Why am I crying? Why do I have to be so useless? I thought it didn't matter. I thought it wouldn't matter, but it does. It does matter somehow, somewhat to me. Only I didn't know. Nothing you can do, could make him love you more and nothing you've done could make him close the door. This is great love. There is no such love in the world. I feel like I'm converting to being a christian now, because of that phrase but I'm not going to do so. Why do I want you? Am I looking for love the wrong way? I don't know. I don't need love from you, I need it from my family. But why do I miss you so? I hope you're doing fine now, without me. I hope you're doing great now, without me. I hope you've found your trust in everyone else, without me. I hope your new life is fantastic, without me. I hope that I never knew you. Because you can pick it up and let it go. It's time to let go long ago, but I'm still crying. I thought that I've already let go, but it seems like I've not. Maybe just today, I shall indulge in my tears. Like what the hell? I should grow up. Even though you will never read this but I shall just type it out for the sake of my all for crying, lol! Maybe this is just one of those emo days that I'll never have again. So I'll cry my all and go and bath, lol!

I keep hearing from people that there is chem test tomorrow, haha.

Okay, I'm feeling cheery now after typing all those crap out, lol! Tomorrow is Vivien Laodajie's Birthday and I would like to say an early birthday to her if she even reads my blog, lol! I love little ant, wenxin, teddybear, kaho, cheryl tan and my family, lol!

Sorry for the lack of updates but no-one hardly reads and I am like sian to update, lol!

Anyway so, friday was CO, and it ended early, so happy ^^
Saturday was TP open house, met vanessa, kerensa and riane there, lol! Me and siewchen went to AP the survey form guy and filled in bestfriend in the who did you come with blank, lol! Went to her house and shopped online, wanted to get some things, lol! And I wore her mummy's shoe home, returning it tomorrow. I did my homework, all of them if i didn't forget any ^^
Sunday is slacking day, sleep and sleep and sleep, and MAPLED. So sorry to those that I dao-ed on msn for some long time. Seemingly, today alot of people talked to me for no reason, and I dao-ed all of them, so sorry. If you are reading my blog now, I am sorry, haha!

Okay, got to go now.

CHRISTINA IS RANDOM AND WENXIN BETTER NO BLACK FACE OR DIE!

I'm never going to grow old, I like looking childish. I like looking like those new freshies, because they are young, but hey I'm sec4 this year. Nobody really believes that unless they're in my level, I have good concealing skills!

Today was a great day at cheryl's house, I think we're seriously like the gossip clan or something. I hope the things said will be kept a secret, lol! Will be going to school early tomorrow to save my own ass which is already hurting, I think it's the bone or something. Ah, the pain strikes back because I fell off a chair. The thirteen year old chair broke it's poor legs when my butt came into contact with it. I refused to see a doctor and now I'm dead. Oh yes, now a smelly huiyi is sitting infront of the com now, but hey I don't actually stink, lol!

Ohmygod, shui hu zhuan tomorrow! You know, today's the first day of my non-fringe day. My face is round but not like primary school so I think it's better now, lol! No colours because I'm lazy

HELLO DEAREST! Update on my wants ah? Why ah?

I'm like chionging homework now, haha. Guess i'm stuck to the game i call childish, i still have english and geog to go. I'm not really tired now, so i'll do it, lol! Oh and there's CO tomorrow after school. Luckily i'm going to have three quarters of the books needed for school tomorrow! I still can't decide whether i should chiong studies to go to JC or just be myself and get into poly. I'm getting the cold fingers thinking about this. Argh, school life. My mum just said it's twelve to make me go to bed, lol! My brother is thinking about getting into basic chinese and I totally disagree, lol!

I wonder who tags as fuggly, yah whatever i suck alot, i suck the air alot as quoted from siewchen. If i look like a piece of shit, so be it. I'm so run down by your comment.

nobody really cares, someone who i thought has grown smarter didn't become smarter at all, i felt damn pissed off, but whatever it's your own world, own brain, own feelings, own opinion, own whatever, why are you so dumb? i'm pissed off for the fact that you actually said wtf because of an idiot, but blah, like i care? like i would bother. it shows how important that idiot is to you, and i'm so sorry that i;m not a substitute friend. i;m only a friend when i;m a real friend, not a substitute for some idiot, TYVM. but to you i;m just a substitute friend, do you know that i hardly make friends? no, like who cares anyway. wtf wtf wtf, i hate whathefucks. fuck fuck fuck, i hate the word fuck.

cca orientation is real sad, so many people rejected our fliers, i guess they are called fliers because they fly all around when they're given out. the wind blows you see and people throw them on the ground. i hate cca orientation because when we seniors corner the poor little secondary1s, they end up crying. i love cca orientation because i can see the bondness of the UG groups, they're super cool can? in the rain already still continue with the orientation, and a random thing is i think chelsia can sing.

oops, i;ve to go now, my dad says to off the com, hes working but he called back, like hello daddy! i need to go and bath too, so see you folks real soon, sad that this post is without colours, sorry.

HAPPY NEW YEAR ALL, HONG BAOS AND MY W910i PLEASE~!

homework not done, going down to chinatown now
i like mascara
i like roly polys
i like my brother

okay bye

Do you really know me?

Leave your thoughts

Goodbye

But it's a part of me

Nerve wrecking ain't it?