HOHOHO, i know christmas is over but yet i don't want holidays to end, i just want to hole up at home and have fun with my family, crap. There's project at tan's house tomorrow, haven't seen them for like a month, lol! So yah, i'm holed up at home being a hamster that eats up all the snacks in the house and the blah.
Okay, so new year is going to be here and my new life too. Yet again, i would just rather my old life back but whatever, it's a new year alright!
Oh yah, the photos that my lousy camera took can't be uploaded, so yah i think i'll just forget about it, i need to go sleep soon, for i need to wake up early tomorrow or die, ohmy.
I need to go and sleep, bye all!

been quite long since i last updated, ohmy. had loads of fun these few days, on christmas i stayed home and we were playing maple, lol! yesterday was day out at science centre. not much new things over there but we still took some photos for fun, but now stupid blogger refuses to upload them, hey it's working now! uh, here's feeding the mouth infected with virus twisties, hope it helps with curing it, ignore my kuku hair and face

there are others but stupid blogger refuses to cooperate, so yah! MAPLE F4!

oops, haven't been blogging for quite a long time because i got sucked into the whirlpool of mapling. people may say it's a noob and boring game but it's fun when the whole family is playing, haha. my daddy's the new recruit and us the veterans.

i feel like eating tang yuan, partly because it's like muah chee, soft and squishy.

little ant was here today to do homework and sadly not even a single one was touched, she went shopping with my mummy at ntuc while i helped my daddy's noob account to level. little ant was mistaken to be mummy's daughter, i think mostly because they were both wearing black t-shirts and long jeans (something which i'll never own unless i'm crazy) so they bought ingredients needed for homemade pizza, well the bread is bought duh and the fillings are put together to become pizza. i love pizza bread, wasn't being a good host today because i felt sick halfway and went off to slack, lol! snowboarding is rather fun on the phone except for the fact that the poor character crashed half a million times thanks to me, haha. so little ant played dj max portable for awhile and felt like she had to perfect it, now you regret it, don't you?

my daddy called back at around 9plus to ask if we are going to orchard later when little ant left, and he asked about what level his maple was, then i was like uh, i think 24 or 23. then he was like, what the hell, so noob, one whole day level one or two levels only, then i was like haha. then my mummy said in the background, huh he call back ask about maple and never ask whether his wife ate?!


now we're slacking and i finally dominated the computer just for blogging, i own! okay, whatever, lol! oh no, the maple recruit is coming home soon, i had faster finish blogging or die because he hates me using the computer for other reasons except homework because of some dumbie, bye!

i don't really know what i want.
i know part of me is there missing you,
yet part of me starts to hate you.

wenxin is the best, haha. oh yah and i must say that i like to say yah now, influenced by her and huiyi is not easily influenced, lol!

i somehow like uncapitalised letters now, i think i'm just mad.

i want to go sleep soon, the weather's nice.
wondering why i'm online so late?
because there's no practice tomorrow.
had a nice chat with mummy,
told her what me and my brother overheard,
we were eavesdropping, ohmy!
so anyway, she agrees that --- is mad,
and i feel like slapping two people right now.
one who cheapened me to save his own skin,
the other a big fat sucker.
gah, like i care,
when you don't bother.
it's over already.
there's not even trust,
i don't say let blahblahblah,
i would say let's blahblahblah,
and i so do not use the word 'ba'.
i jump to conclusions easily,
easily.
whatever,
i'm happier now after the whole eavesdropping.
no CO tomorrow,
the cows are flying,
flying to the moon.

I'm only updating because I'm pissed off, very. Oh, and do not read. Thank you very much. Or just die will you? Okay, maybe not. Because the people who read my blog are my besties, and I so don't want them to die. Except some certain fan of mine, I bet she reads every night, not bad. I'll update regularly to fulfill your desire for huiyi's words! Die when you see this, I said do not read.
&edited after my brother talked to me, I shall not let this fan indulge in her 'oh-im-so-great-and-you-are-just-a-bitch' land.

This post nearly disappeared because I think the computer felt my wrath and hanged, lol!

To bestfriend, gah blah, you know what I mean. You're such a liar and do I've to say that you stammer whenever you lie and that you can't tell lies. I heard something. Something real bad. It's a wonder why someone hates me, and you're the cause of it. Telling all this lies, I'm sorry but I've to say this, I do not harass people and I will not end my life for nothing. I feel super irritated okay, not only do you not trust me, you went on to get back at me for some stupid idiot sms you think I sent which I did not, I can still hear you people, go die voices. Go ahead, blame me. I would be very sad if you blame me, but whatever, you do. I sound just like you people now. No, worse, I sound pathetic which I will not be soon after this post. You think just like all of them, you think I can't be trusted. I don't understand how you can agree and say so many untrue things when you know what to say. You either make it or break it, for all girls are bitches right? You probably think I suck, and I don't really care now, I do suck when I'm pissed off and I do suck when I'm not pissed off. Whatever, I suck right? Hassle, hassle. Why am I spending more than fifteen minutes typing this when it's all a scam? What stupid sms did I send, why don't you just tell me that you did so for me to hear? Call your back ups, I'm not afraid. I am not desperate, hello. Like I bother to hold on forever and ever more when someone is kicking me aside, I don't. Ridiculous. Stupid bestfriend, damn asshole, and you still tell me, if you could change one thing, you'll change the way --- thinks. Die okay? I don't care about what --- thinks anymore. I don't care what's going to happen.

&modified from the previous post, damn why do I bother =.=
Like if you want me,
you have me.
You don't want me,
I can just go away.

Assumptions and more assumptions, jumping to conclusions, is that really you?

Okay, whatever, spent too much time typing bullshit. I need to get out of the sun right now because it's getting hot and I want breakfast. Recently I'm easily hungered, damn.

Bottomline, I do not harass people and I don't and will not give a damn anymore.

I shall report about the most interesting and funny thing which happened today.
MY DADDY PLAYED MAPLE! Okay, maybe not that interesting.

I'm a lazybum and I'm lazy to blog.

Damn, I don't look like I'm 19 0r 20, do I? But photos are deceiving.

I like hanging the ornaments on the christmas tree, but I don't own one.

Does anyone wonder whether yesterday is important to me?

You're so ready to give up, to give away.
It makes people wonder if you even mind,
no you wouldn't mind, right?
Why should I mind?
But so many thoughts are going through my brain,
it makes me feel insecure and unwanted.
Like if I want you,
I have you,
I don't want you,
you can just go away.

And it's true that someone has to stop acting like Xiaxue, it's making me puke. Xiaxue's great, but someone just doesn't cut it. Oh, do I've to mention the thickness of someone's face. I had better not visit again or Ill have to immediately click the red cross on the top right hand corner.

So here I am, back to this tiny weeny space of mine. It's time to update because someone called me a maple freak which i'm so not. It's just that my mummy plays! And a VIP to me thinks my blog ain't boring, lol!
Huiyi's home alone now and she's bored. She hasn't touched a single piece of homework, so she's dead.
Went to the expo on Saturday and I've to say that it was boring except the performances which were rather entertaining, nevertheless, I want those photos little ant took, haha. Am now browsing through the sgcafe forum looking at photos. Poor person that I know has been commented on somehow, haha whatever. I'm going off now. And this post shall be colourless. Till then!

Did I mention the people me and little ant called box men? I think they're super cute


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Swimming at wenxin's house today was fun, but I was wrong about the part which says "fun under the sun", it's not fun at all being under the sun, lol! Now, my mummy is laughing at my face which is like kind of red and hot because I think I'm sunburnt. Wenxin was right when she says that my mummy will say I thought I ask you don't swim so early, but hey wenxin, she didn't scold! Now my hair is dry dry dry, I think chlorine eats hair while hair conditioner eats into hair, there's a difference okay yiting? Dinner was rather pathetic compared to that of what my brother told me they had. But we had ruffles and chocominis(:
We went to Eastpoint to get those from the NTUC, we also got bubble tea, I think mine tasted like 'bandung' milk tea, eeeeeeeeee! And my brother just showed me the big Big BIG bag of snacks they bought from NTUC when I was at wenxin's house, there's like alot!

My family watched the drama without me, how can they! Now my brother is watching it without them, how can he! Now, it's showing till the part where this stupid man don't like his first wife anymore cause he prefers the new wife who screams alot and who I think is a sucker. His second wife is like a demon and uh she harms the first wife, sucker! What the hell am I talking about this? I shall make it this smaller so no one can read(:

Now I'm feeling rather sad, I don't think this is working, this doesn't feel like my personal blog, but whatever, I shall still talk about what I want to talk about non-stop. I'm unhappy Unhappy UNHAPPY but my family's great Great GREAT! I remember that you promised not to make me sad, but how can that be true? A person wouldn't be a person if there's no involvement of other feelings except happiness. I think we're too small, too small to even control what we thought we could. Gah, I think I'm lousy. Just plain lousy. I'm beginning to wonder what brings people together and pulls them apart. Is there a certain timing for all those things to happen? Or is it just what we as humans do to make it happen? This is certainly boring, I suddenly feel the urge to talk to someone, like little ant. Love is blind but friendships just closes an eye. Are friends really better than those we think we love? But I know family's the best after all.

There are so many buttons to hit, what if the stop button is hit accidentally?

This is my 40th post and I wouldn't even realise it anyway.

To sum up today and yesterday, I've been at home sleeping and eating, lastly watching that drama with my family. Oh, and having headaches too, lol!

Will most probably be going to wenxin's house tomorrow to get some homework done and to play and talk of course. I seriously hope I can go because I haven't told my daddy and it'll be considered as last minute, ohmy. And I hope teddybear will be there too, wonder if there's swimming on the list of to be done. Anyway, we'll have lots of fun under the sun!(:

Now I'm going to sound like a total vain pig so don't read. I don't like taking photos where there are no reflective surfaces, gah. I'll look weird and even my mummy was like saying so weird, delete it lah. Aww crap, I need to live with reflective surfaces for the rest of my photo taking life. Blah, my mummy just came and read what I was typing, lol!

I don't really know whether is it better when it's paused or playing.

Yesterday was CO and I've to say that I can't play the piece needed for guanmohui, lol! So anyway, we ate quite a number of sweets and I think it's always like party-time for me and yiting, haha. Went to the pasar malam right after CO to buy muah chee, I bought muah chee for me and wenxin while yiting got her fried bananas, lol! Okay, muah chee tastes better when you're hungry, haha. So we camped at whitesands till we all felt like going home, walked around abit and saw some people. Went home and it rained while some person suggested that I should hold two umbrellas to avoid getting drenched, think the idea is ridiculous but it was kind of funny too. I almost thought I couldn't catch the bus but three buses came at the same time, lol! So many people were trying to squeeze into the first bus and it was pretty funny looking at them.

Showered and had dinner and started watching some drama with my family. It's called 封神榜, it's cute considering that there were lotus people and it's touching because there was a mother who was pitiful because she is nice but her son is bad to her and all the blah. Gah, this is boring talk.

OHMYGOSH, I know I look like crap if I can't see how I look like without a mirror before taking photos and it's on wenxin's friendster profile, FYI, that is not me, lol!

Listen to the music as it plays slowly, slowly eating into your mind.


Tag replies again,
hellpi: wow, you tagged! i also really hope to see you soon, haha! i missed you, lol! to be the little ant serving the queen sounds kind of emo, update more lah!((:
venecia: hey there, saw you!
yiting: hello love, i'm happy that i got my muah chee!(:
wenxin: yoohoo pretty, your tummy is not big to start with and i was advertising for muah chee(:

I want muah chee from the pasar malam! The muah chee there is nice, soft and squishy, lol! Complete with peanut dusting and sugar, it tastes even better when it's hot! I shall go buy muah chee tomorrow before CO, so I'll go to the mrt earlier just to buy muah chee. Hope I really can go earlier because I really want to eat muah chee! I don't know why there is a price difference when the muah chee given looks all the same to me. If you bought two packets of $1.50 ones, it'll probably amount to lesser than three packets of $1 ones.

And my daddy said something recently, he was like aiyah you stop using your brother's phone to sms lah! Then I was like but hey, I need to reply to people. Then he said you can do it online, like use the internet to send people smses. Then I said but how am I supposed to know when some certain people can reply me. Then he said something which kind of gave me hope like see how first okay? Then he went to bed. I totally know what that meant, and I'm not going to ruin it with anything like late night calls and the blah. I think it's better not to sacrifice anything and the other party will eventually be happier because the other party wouldn't have to listen to stuff like but hey I did this for you. I don't know what happened. I hope it'll all be okay. Weird reasoning but whatever, I haven't had dinner okay.

Now now, here's about today! I slept till around 1 then ate some porridge and went back to sleep again. I woke up at five, ate some chips and chocolate and fell back into sleep till now. But you can't really blame me because it's raining today. At this rate, I think I'll hit 50kg soon, lol! Then everyone will wonder eh who is that piggy ah? Wenxin was like telling me say I can see your tummy yesterday, I told people that I was putting on weight but they said no. So this is proof. I need to jian fei, maybe I should pretend that my brother needs to slim down then go exercise with him. I think I'll be too lazy anyway. I always get fat during the holidays and go back to my normal size when school reopens because there's at least a little exercise, haha.

Somehow I felt like having fever, it's going to be a special fever, maybe this fever can like burn away anything that I don't really want to know of and think of. Not bad right? But I might just regret it if it really happens, okay why am I talking crap?

Okay my face is a little oily now, so I shall go wash it, lol! Actually I'm quite glad that I don't have really oily skin or I'll be having lots of pimples right now because I'm a lazy person.

I made some resolutions yesterday night. They're to:
Stop worrying about things so much and just let them be
Not put too much of my heart into something that's not normal for my age
Work harder when school reopens (which means I can slack now)
Just trust people even though I feel like they're lying
Sleep when it's sleeping time
Wake up earlier instead of lazing in bed
Make cards for people when I'm free
Eliminate late night calls

Now for the tag replies thingy, I really don't want to do this because nobody tags but whatever, this is for those who tagged(:
cheryl: I love you too!
WENXIN: Hey there girl, I will smile non-stop!(((((;
Lamer2: Look I did update but you lousy person didn't, haha. Holidays are super fun, ain't they?
Lynn: Hello there the person who calls me goldfish! I lag as usual unless you want to introduce me new songs?(:
vivi: OVER OVER! HAHAHAHAHAHA, I get the joke and I wouldn't smack you for goodness sake!(:

I just spent some time infront of this com updating the rest of the details of this blog and did only a little bit of blog hopping and friendster stuff, checked some 4D and ToTo for my mummy and I need to go pee and bath now, so bye!

Second update in a day!

Day out with little ant, wenxin and vivien((: BIG BIG SMILE!
Vivien left earlier and we bought a sweet of the brand named vivienne, and I kept dropping that chocolate 'fake' bar non-stop. Okay I think I'm mad, for why am I talking about this, lol! Went to the John Little sale at Expo, I had to say that there wasn't much for me to buy there and wenxin was saying buy lor, buy lor at everything we say that looks okay. I finally met a turtleneck sweater lover, I used to like them too but thought that it was impractical for the weather in Singapore, wonder how will little ant survive? We lamed around abit till 8pm, lol!
Century Square was next, and I want to buy stickers from Lovely Land too, but I don't really know where to paste it, haha. I finally realised what BHG stands for after little ant pointed it out. It means Be Here for Good things or something like that, lol! I think I need to buy some checkered skirt and woolen top or something like those things, and I need to buy those cancer patient hat. Not really for cancer patients but that's what me and my brother named them, lol!
I think there's so little time and so much to do. A sentence kept replaying in my head today, I don't really know why but it just echoed in my tiny weeny brain all day long. Becareful what you wish for, for it might just come true. Is this is a kind of precaution or is it telling me that I'm about to do something that I will regret for life. Shut up brain, stop wondering and just trust.

I walked home half-crying today, because I can't take it anymore.
I need to find more things to do for they're distractions.
HOMEWORK AND LIBRARY BOOKS here I come!

There was CO today and it passed quite fast, even though I was rather reluctant to go for practice, lol! think I ate almost all of yiting's remaining sweets. I shall buy sweets to survive the next CO since they're survival food(:

Library time was quite slack because we didn't end up doing duty today but instead just stuck around and read books(:

I tell myself that I shouldn't believe it, but I can't bring myself to do so. Updates just suck because I don't really know what to say. But I can't even differentiate the truth from lies.

Part of the song played for our CO farewell video, brings quite alot of memories back to me, lol! Emo songs are bad for health but who cares? I know this is quite a old song but I must say that this song is nice, lol! Does anyone want to introduce to me new songs because I find that I'm always lagging behind.

When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it okay
I miss you

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do reminds me of you
And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you, I love the things that you do

When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now

We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were, yeah
All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I'd do, I'd give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me, yeah

I MISS YOU

Don't forget these faces because we'll never forget yours.

CO chalet has been quite fun considering how many lights there were in the chalet and the cleanliness of the floor. I had slight fever and the blah. Eunice, jolynn, edrea and me went to little ant's HO chalet to stay the night, lol! Later on little ant gave up her bed for edrea and eunice to sleep while the little ant, jolynn and me camped outside macdonalds looking at stars. I talked non-stop, sorry people. First was the amazing race, I don't know how many people enjoyed it because almost all groups had to make a detour. For me, it was rather interesting staying at Orchard Road waiting for them to arrive. Jolynn bought ice-cream and made me share it with her, jolynn's a nice person. Our job ended and we follow a particular group to IKEA to continue the race. It was super tiring but the BBQ's rewarding. Christina was BBQ-ing like there's no tomorrow so we'd lots of food to eat thanks to her. Vivien and wenxin also helped in BBQ-ing, not to mention the rest because we were all doing different stuff, lol! Doreen poured out the drinks non-stop and guiyue helped out a little bit. Yiting the teddy bear with HARD bones BBQed for awhile and came and slack with me, lol! Eunice was all around so couldn't remember what she was doing, sorry girl. I was the super duper slacker who ate alot of christina's satay(:

The day before chalet was spent at the AKIRA warehouse in jurong. We went to IMM for a walk, lol! Bought some things from GIANT.

So saturday was day out with little ant. We were happily looking for the things we wanted despite the fact that alot of shops weren't opened yet. Walking round Bugis with little ant is certainly fun, lol! Watermelon is 我的美人, haha. Bought a pair of shades each and now I owe her money, and the amount is still going up, better return her the amount the next time I see her. My daddy said that he was going to go out to find my mummy at 5plus but in the end he came for me at 3plus so little ant went along with us to the AKIRA warehouse. We explored the place non-stop and went to IMM next.

I forgot what I did on Friday, lol! I know that I went for CO and I really can't remember.

And there's the genting trip which I shall not talk about, lol! Because I think I shall be going off because there's a maple freak near me!

I published the post without adding another line, so yeah? Here's my line:
My heart really sank.

Do you really know me?

Leave your thoughts

Goodbye

But it's a part of me

Nerve wrecking ain't it?